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| The Women With You |
| 09.22.04 (6:12 am) [edit] |
by Kenny Chesney The Women With You
She hit the door at 6:55 Sack full of groceries, split down the sides Can goods scattered all the way to the curb The look on her face saying, don't say a word So its me and her, and a can of beans Sittin' there on the front porch swing The western sky all turning red Head on my shoulder, she sighed and said.
I've been gopher, chauffer, company chairman Coffee maker, copy repairman Any more there aint nothing I swear man, that I don't do. I've been jugglin', strugglin', closin' big deals Dancin' backwards in high heals And just when it feels like I can't make it through. She said, It sure is nice to just be the woman with you.
She said, The girl I was with a business degree Probably wouldnt recognize me I was gonna run the bank, I was gonna run the math Now all I wanna run is a bubble bath Back then you know I had this plan Before all of this reality set in Here'd come life for a ready or not Hey, I wanted it all and thats what I got.
I've been gopher, chauffer, company chairman Coffee maker, copy repairman Any more there ain't nothing I swear man, that I don't do I've been jugglin', strugglin', closin' big deals Dancin' backwards in high heals And just when it feels like I can't make it through She said, It sure is nice to just be the woman with you.
She said, I'm gopher, chauffer, company chairman Coffee maker, copy repairman Any more there ain't nothing I swear man, that I don't do I've been jugglin', strugglin', closin' big deals Dancin' backwards in high heals And just when it feels like I can't make it through She said. It sure is nice to just be the woman, The woman with you...
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| apple JUICE!!!!! |
| 09.22.04 (6:10 am) [edit] |
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My first college test wasn’t that bad. It was still pretty hard but not nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. After that I went and saw Gabe at the hospital. He is in the pediatrics so they give you window paint and let you paint the windows and the doors. I think that is such a good idea, because it helps them for a short time forget why they are in there. Gabe had a lot of fun doing it, he was very proud of his artwork. It was so cute. He painted GABEY LOVES STEPHANIE on one window with hearts all over it. And the other had everyone’s name on it in his family, and said love, family, ohana (means family in Hawaii, from the movie lilo and stitch). Then his mom and him painted stuff on the doors so that people can’t look in when they walk by. It gives the room some character too. He got lots of flowers and balloons. He got a smiley face balloon for Jordan, Hannah and Evie and Gabe was punching it saying “Are you happy now? Are you happy now? Are you happy now?” it was so cute. Then while his mom was talking to the doctor he asked her if Gabe was on any drugs and he is sitting in his bed saying crack. If anyone wants to do anything for him you could send a card to his house. If you don’t have the address you can ask me for it. I don’t feel comfortable posting it on here.
& nbsp; &n bsp; They are hoping that Gabe will be out of the hospital on Thursday at the soonest. They are going to send him home with an IV and have an IV drip at home once a day I think. They will have a nurse come to his house and set everything up for him.
& nbsp; &n bsp; Gabe and I have been dating almost a year…what is an appropriate one year anniversary gift? Any suggestions?
& nbsp; &n bsp; I have been getting a lot of knitting done while I’ve been with Gabe at the hospital. I feel bad watching him just sit there. I wish there was something I could do to make him feel better.
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| Mr. Mom |
| 09.20.04 (5:55 am) [edit] |
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Lonestar's new song (Kind of shows you that it's not so easy being a mom) Mr. Mom
Lost my job, came home mad Got a hug and kiss and that's too bad She said I can go to work until you find another job I thought I like the sound of that Watch TV and take long naps Go from a hard working dad to being Mr. Mom.
Well, Pampers melt in a Maytag dryer Crayons go up one drawer higher Rewind Barney for the fifteenth time Breakfast six, naps at nine There's bubble gum in the baby's hair Sweet potatoes in my lazy chair Been crazy all day long and it's only Monday Mr. Mom.
Football, soccer and ballet Squeeze in Scouts and PTA And there's that shopping list she left That's seven pages long How much smoke can one stove make The kids won't eat my charcoal cake It's more than any man can take Being Mr. Mom
Well, Pampers melt in a Maytag dryer Crayons go up one drawer higher Rewind Barney for the sixteenth time Breakfast, six naps at nine There's bubble gum in the baby's hair Sweet potatoes in my lazy chair Been crazy all day long and it's only Monday Mr. Mom.
Before I fall in bed tonight If the dog didn't eat the classifieds I'm gonna look just one more time.
'Cause, Pampers melt in a Maytag dryer Crayons go up one drawer higher Rewind Barney for the eighteenth time Breakfast, six naps at nine There's bubble gum in the baby's hair Sweet potatoes in my lazy chair Been crazy all day long Oh, been crazy all day long and it's only Monday Mr. Mom.
Balancin' checkbooks, juggling bills Thought there was nothing to it Baby, now I know how you feel What I don't know is how you do it...
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| "Do not remove under penalty of 'You Die'!" |
| 09.20.04 (5:53 am) [edit] |
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Ok, so I am really bad about writing in here. Let’s see where do I begin….
& nbsp; &n bsp; Labor Day Weekend- I went up north for Labor Day weekend. Which was great. Before I went up there I went to the mall with Gabe, Evie and Irene. Gabe’s mom asked me not to call her by her last name. Which is really hard for me to get used too. I grew up believe that all adults should be addressed Mr. and Mrs., so on and so forth. But anyways, we went to Marshall Fields and his mom bought me two dresses. They were having a huge sale on these beautiful dresses and by the time I had gotten there they already had some picked out for me. I was really surprised. His mom is so sweet. I really don’t even know why she did that for me, I just think that it was really sweet of her to do that.
& nbsp; &n bsp; Afterwards we went up to Petoskey. I was so excited to be seeing my family and friends. Friday night Gabe and I rented Taking Lives, Matt came over and we all watched it. The next day I went out to Laurens house with Gabe. Her family does this huge chili cook out. It was really cool, they have red and green chili’s imported I think (not totally sure). John was there too, it was great seeing him too. Lauren was playing around with her dad’s old camera that she is going to use for her photography class. She took pictures and then realized she left this funky lens on it that makes everything darker. It was still fun though.
& nbsp; &n bsp; Sunday I worked for the Kurlicks for two hours. It was nice seeing Sloan and Chloe. Those girls are so cute. Ilene is now almost 7 months pregnant with her third child. I can’t wait for next summer when I get to see him/her. They don’t want to know the sex of their baby until it’s born. But they paid me 50 dollars an hour on Sunday! It was insane!
& nbsp; &n bsp; Now I am going to jump around a little bit.
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& nbsp; &n bsp; Gabe had surgery on Friday to get his port out. We thought that this meant it was the total end of everything but that poor kid is never that lucky. He ended up getting an infection they think from the operating room. They think that something wasn’t totally cleaned right. It makes me so angry because when they put it in he got an infection too! These people are worthless. His mom took him to the E.R. last night (Sunday Sept 19) to have them look at it since she had been calling the surgeons and other doctors and they wouldn’t really do anything. I just want this all to go away and for him to be healthy again.
& nbsp; &n bsp; I surprised my family when I came up this weekend. They had no idea I was coming up. The only people that I told was Christina and Lauren I do believe. (But I could be wrong) It was so nice seeing them. I went to my moms work first and saw her and then I went to see my sister because she had lunch right then and then Gabe and I went to see my dad. They all were really surprised.
& nbsp; &n bsp; My brother turned 20 last Tuesday (the 14th) I drove down to Westland to see him. You never really realize how much you miss someone until you see them for the first time in a long time and then have to leave again. We had a lot of fun though. I got to meet his new girlfriend and she was really nice. I don’t know if she can ever fill Mandy’s shoes but she is trying. I miss Mandy. She was so much fun and just an all around amazing sweet girl. Mandy is my brother’s ex-girlfriend for those of you who don’t know.
More Later....
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| Every Light In The House Is On |
| 09.01.04 (8:16 am) [edit] |
Trace Adkins....Every light in the house is on I told you I'd leave a light on, In case you ever wanted to come back home, You smiled and said you appreciate the gesture, I took your every word to heart, 'Cause I can't stand us bein' apart, And just to show how much I really miss ya,
Every light in the house is on, The back yard's bright as the crack of dawn, The front walk looks like runway lights, It's kinda like noon in the dead of night, Every light in the house is on, Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone, Every light in the house is on,
If I should ever start forgetin', I'll turn the lights off one by one, So you can see that I agree It's over, But until then I want you to know, If you look south you'll see a glow, Thats me waitin' at home each night to hold ya,
Every light in the house is on, The back yard's bright as the crack of dawn, The front walk looks like runway lights, It's kinda like noon in the dead of night,
Every light in the house is on, Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone, ooooh Every light in the house is on, The back yard's bright as the crack of dawn, The front walk looks like runway lights, It's kinda like noon in the dead of night, Every light in the house is on, Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone, Every light in the house is on. |
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| I miss you! |
| 09.01.04 (8:13 am) [edit] |
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Wow it has been forever since I have written in here. Sorry about that. My computer was down all summer and then I moved. Yea MOVED! Scary but it is a good experience. I am actually having a lot of fun down here. People say that they want to move out of Petoskey and into a bigger city because there is more to do. Well sorry to burst your bubble but you have to make your own fun where ever you are because it is the same down here. People here just go to the bar.
I miss everyone in Petoskey. I will be home this weekend. YAY! My brother moves into his apartment today. I’m happy for him, but I am nervous at the same time. I want him to straighten his life out and get things together.
My parents are coming to visit me tomorrow. Christina came down here for a tennis tournament last Saturday but it got cancelled. I still got to see her and go to lunch with her and her mom and Hillary.
The classes I am taking are….
Principles of Microeconomics
Western Art and Music History
Intro to Business
Political Science
Gabe has made this transition for me so great. I know it would have been incredibly hard without him. I don’t even think I would have been able to do it. He is such an amazing boyfriend. I love him so much.
Well I miss you all and hope to be seeing you soon (at the famous Phelan house Chili Cook Out!)
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| I love you so much Gabe |
| 06.30.04 (10:05 am) [edit] |
It has been an extremely long time since I have written in here. I don’t even know where to begin. Everything I knew was turned upside down yesterday. I was in Lansing for orientation for college. I scheduled my classes, I’m taking a math lab where I have to go at least 4 hours a week, micro economics, writing 121, and intro to sociology. It is a full schedule, 15 credit hours.
I called Gabe from the school to see if he wanted to go out to eat with my mom and I while we waited for my appointment with the councilor. He came, but he didn’t look good. I could tell something was wrong with him. After we ate, we sat down in the councilor waiting area. He told me he was really warm. I felt his head and he was ridiculously hot. I guessed about 104. He told me that it was just from the building. I told him he was crazy. We went in to see the councilor and he waited in the waiting room. When my mom and I came back he was gone. That freaked me out, I started calling his house, and his cell but no one answered so I kept calling. Finally he called me back and told me that he went home because he wasn’t feeling well. He told me to call him for directions to get back to his place. I have to finish registering for classes. So my mom and I sat down at a computer and organized everything.
I kind of knew how to get back to his house so I never called. My mom and I got slightly lost but nothing big. We made it back there on our own. When we got to his house, I noticed that Gabe wasn’t there. That made me really nervous. I asked his sister and she said that Gabe was rushed to the hospital. I totally freaked out when she said that. I called the ER I called about 5 different numbers till I was able to get his room number. I talked to him for about 3 minutes and just asked his room number and floor number and my mom and I rushed out the door. All he told me on the phone was that he has an infection. I have known since I started dating him back in October that the worst thing that could happen to him is that he would get an infection and it could spread to his port and then into his heart and he could die. So once he said the word infection I lost it. I knew I couldn’t cry in front of him because I would never stop. I wanted to be strong for him. I could barely keep myself together.
When we got to the hospital it all seemed too surreal. It killed me looking at him in that hospital bed. He had an IV going into his port, and he was just laying there in a white undershirt and basketball pants. He looked miserable. I just wanted to hug him and kiss him and tell him that everything is going to be ok. But I couldn’t even touch him and when I walked into that room I really didn’t even feel like everything was going to be ok. He was trying to cheer me up though. He kept telling me to smile and be happy. But there was no way in hell I was going to smile and be happy. He just kept telling me that he was going to be ok. But as he was saying that his bottom lip was quivering. I didn’t want to leave him. But it would have been hard for me to stay down there, and then we wouldn’t know how I would be getting back.
The drive home was the longest 4 hours of my life. I drove both there and home. It was so hard. The whole time all I could think about was Gabe and seeing him in that hospital bed, and hearing the words serious. And that if his port gets infected it is a direct line to his heart and he might need a heart transplant. Hearing those words felt like a dagger was being twisted in my heart. For almost the last 9 months Gabe has been the biggest part of my life. He fills this gap in my which no one has been able to do in the past. From the way I think, to things I believe in, he has impacted me like no one else ever has. I love him with all of my heart and everything that I am, and I won’t let that go and I won’t give up. He ahs been my pillar of strength, my hope, my love, my life. I think I have been praying every hour for the last 24 hours. And if you know me I am not really the religious type. I will try to keep everyone updated on Gabe. I have been calling him about every 3-4 hours.
As of right now, his temperature is down to about 100. They have been taking blood cultures of him about everything 8 hours or so I think. But they have not given him the results back yet. He told me that it scares him that they have not given him the results back yet, so I don’t know what to think. He is getting a blood transfusion today. They are going to put lots of drugs in the blood so hopefully it will help. And if he needs anymore blood in the future it has to come from a family member. But Gabe has –AB blood, which is the like rarest form of blood out there. I’m not sure if anyone in his family has that type.
If anyone wants to do anything for Gabe, please pray for him. Pray for him to find the strength to get through this, for the medicine to work, and for him to finally be healed. Thank you everyone for helping me these past few days, and for praying for Gabe.
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| It's all over |
| 06.15.04 (12:57 pm) [edit] |
I can barely take in everything that has happened in the past week. I’m waiting it for it to hit me one day. Last Wednesday was my very last day of school. That was so weird. It didn’t feel right. I said goodbye to Fallon after gym and she started crying, and that made Katie cry and that made me cry. It was awful. It was so strange leaving school that day. Everything was over with. The first big step in my life was done with. I was no longer a k-12 student. I wasn't in school anymore.
Gabey came up though that weekend. That was great seeing him. He always makes everything so much better. Gabe and I are probably closer now than we have ever been. We never argue or fight anymore. It’s so nice. I guess we have sort of got passed that stage in our relationship. My parents love him to death. They spent an entire morning telling me how great he is, and how they like him so much. They tell me that he is the only one of my boyfriends that they trust and like. I am really happy that they like him. I love him so much.
Graduation was on Sunday. It all seemed so surreal. It just didn’t feel like it was happening. My brother and I walked down together. My mom loved that. We have 3 speakers. Tyler Roth, he is the class president. He gave the president address. It was pretty good considering her wrote it the night before. Then we had the honor speaker, our honor speaker was Gerric Williams. (I have no idea how to spell his first name) and then we had the graduation speaker. She was a student that graduated from Petoskey High School like 10 years ago, and now she is in cancer research. She had a great speech. And it was short too, so that was nice. She mentioned me in her speech. That was weird. It was for going to Internationals for DECA.
Then they called your name and you walked across the stage and got your diploma. I still can’t believe it, it was just so weird. After that all the class officers got on stage and said their little thing, and we through our caps. Then they played Dexter Freebush’s song Leaving Town it was our class song. (Sorry if I slaughter his name). After that I ran up to Emily, well more like tackled her and started balling my eyes out. I couldn’t stop crying. I was happy and very sad at the same time. I knew that tonight was the last time I was going to be with all of my classmates. I grew up with these kids and now I was never going to see 90% of them ever again. It was a crazy feeling. We all met in the cafeteria after graduation. They had punch and cookies and stuff. We took a lot of pictures. Then I gave me dad a hug and he told me how proud of me was, and that I was the perfect child. That made me cry even harder. He also said that my car was completely paid off. They bought me car but I was going to have to pay them back for it, but they decided to give it to me as a graduation gift.
After graduation was the all night senior party. My mom was working at it. She was running one of the black jack tables. The theme was Olympics. They did a great job. It was a lot of fun. Most of the night I hung out with Emily and Matt. They had some really interesting games. They gave away a lot of cool gifts too. I got a frame, a hat, money, candle, this really cool soap.
But it is all over now. I still can't believe it. I know one day it will hit me really hard and I will be sad. But I'll live. A friend of mine asked me if I had the chance if I would do high school all over again. I didn't even hesitate, and said without a doubt. High school was the most fun I've ever had. There were some extemely rough times in it, but it only made me a stronger person.
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| 2 More Days! |
| 05.31.04 (6:21 pm) [edit] |
This weekend was a lot of fun. Gabe came up on Wednesday and I spent that night at his house. That was great minus the fact that I had to get up and go to school in the morning. But he came and picked me up at 12:30. He went in and saw Lauren. Wednesday night we went over to Jackie’s house to watch the game. I am sure that she hates being home with nothing to do, so we tried our best to entertain her. We also watched Scary movie 3 with her. It was Lauren, Jackie and I. That is a great movie.
Thursday was just about the same. I spent the night at his house. But still had to get up in the morning and go to school. That sucked, once again.
Friday we took Jackie to dinner and a movie. Gabe and Lauren taught me how to parallel park. That was an interesting experience. But I did it!
Here is a little something completely off topic. I feel like Lauren and I are starting to drift apart. I have to say that it’s not a very good feeling. Maybe this is all in my head…maybe I am completely insane. It just has been something that I have been starting to notice. We still hang out I guess. But it just doesn’t seem the same. I don’t know…I still consider her to be my best girl-friend (not like that you sickos!) She just is something who I don’t want to lose as a friend. :? :cry:
Anyways…back to Friday, we went to dinner at Applebee’s. That was a lot of fun. We told them it was Jackie’s birthday. Her birthday is tomorrow. So they brought her out a brownie and ice cream. The look on her face was quite priceless. I was glad that she was happy and having a good time. She needed that. We then went to “The Day After Tomorrow” that movie had some great special effects. Didn’t really care too much about the movie though. It was really sad.
I baby-sat with Gabe this weekend. That was an interesting experience. It was two little girls, one was 4 her name was Sloan, and the other was Chloe she was 2. They are so cute. They are really easy to take care of too. It was really funny, at one point Sloan started to take off her clothes, and Gabe started to run for the other room…I was like what are you doing? He said “They can sue me for stuff like that” he said some other things but I don’t really remember what it was…something to that though.
I was really sad when Gabe left Sunday. Because I knew he was leaving me to go to the hospital. That is a shitty feeling. He came with me on Sunday to help baby-sit again. He left a little after 7 though. He was really sweet all weekend. I miss him so much when he is not around. Soon I will be living near him though, so that is something to look forward too. He just makes everything seem better. I just really need him a lot.
Lets see…what else can I blabber about…I have 2 more days left of school and a lot of homework and shit to get done. Not looking forward to it at all. I am looking forward to leaving but not the work. I leave this summer for Lansing. I am terrified. It is something that I want to do; I am just going to miss everyone insanely. I went to Gabe’s house for spring break, and I got home sick after being there for 5 days. What am I getting myself into? I am going to go through with it though; it is just something that I have to do prove to myself. I am a big girl! YAY! Just kidding, I’m not.
I am just scared for my family. I don’t want anything to happen to my dad when I am not here. He is really sick if you don’t know. The doctors said that he has like 5 good years left…like 3 years ago. And I am very protective of my sister and I feel like I can’t protect her from down there. Yea, well I think I am going to leave it at that. [LINE]
"We loved our daughter, but she was evil. Made the horses crazy, killed our puppies, hid the remote...really sick shit". -Scary Movie 3
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| Research Paper! |
| 05.26.04 (10:06 am) [edit] |
Wow. It has been so long since Ive had time to write in here, let alone time to do anything. I am getting more and more migraines. It sucks so much. The doctor gave me some meds for it, but they arent working. It sucks. When I get a migraine I am unable to function basically. And the nasty symptoms last till the next day. I had one Monday and its Wednesday and I still had the side effects.
Gabe is coming up today. I wasnt able to see him last weekend. His mom didnt want him to drive alone. Which sucked a lot. But I ended up going to the movies with Matt and Emily because her and Tom broke up, but they ended up getting back together. But we went and saw Troy. Which is a great movie I must say. It is the second time Ive seen it but just as good. Then we picked up Christina and went to the cancer walk and saw Davids band play and Als band play. They were all right. Later that night I just went back to my house and talked to Gabe on the phone for a few hours.
I turned my research paper in on Friday. Very scared about that. Today in class Mrs. Simon was yelling at us, and telling us that they were the worst papers she has ever received. That hurt. She said that a lot of people plagiarized too, and they need to confess. I started to freak out. I know that I didnt plagiarize anything but I dont want to get a bad grade. She said that she had graded 4 seniors papers last night, and the grades looked like this D-, D-, B, and D-. I will freak out if I get a D-! But I went and saw her before 5th hour. Some other seniors were in there too. She started handing them to the other seniors and then told me to stay. And I stayed, and she was really pissed off, and I started to freak out. My eyes started to water and I almost started to cry. I was so nervous as to why she wanted me to stay. But then she came up to me and was like waitwhat do you want? And I said my research paper, and she told me that she hasnt even gotten to mine yet. That was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, but that means mine could still suck. :?
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| Men Don't Change |
| 05.17.04 (11:00 am) [edit] |
This is new country song. it's really funny. Got to love it!
He was a bad boy and I was a good girl He needed me to smooth out the edges Well he'd get his drink on and flirt with the ladies and after four years of his crap I quit dead on Im a magnet for the fixer up my and if I know that it's fire do i let it burn my hand?
Cupid works for the devil be suspicious if he cries You know sex is usually good but it ain't always right Chocolate is a band-aid no matter what they say Shoes don't stretch, and men don't change
My friend Lisa, she loves a liar She found out about his other girlfriends He makes excuses so she forgives him And she swears she's gonna leave if he screws up again But he's good lookin that's why she don't see He's got her exactly where he wants her to be
Cupid works for the devil be suspicious if he cries You know sex is usually good but it ain't always right Chocolate is a band-aid no matter what they say Shoes don't stretch, and men don't change
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| Now who's playing the dumb little games? |
| 05.17.04 (10:55 am) [edit] |
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Matt helped me last night. That kid rocks. He is really nice; I?ve known him since kindergarten. But we lost touch through out middle school and high school and now that he is dating one of my best friends we have gotten close again. I am so glad that Christina and Matt are dating. They make each other so happy, plus they are really good for each other. But anyways he brought me this phone cord last night. We met half way. He is a saint. My Internet phone cord got chewed up by Luci so I needed a new one, and we didn?t have one. So I sacrificed my house phone cord to use so I could do my homework. He is also helping me with this nasty virus thing that happen to my computer. My computer will shut down all the time, just randomly shut down. It?s so annoying! :x Well anyways?this weekend was a blast. Friday when I got down there we hung out at his house, and then we went out to eat at Mongolian BBQ. I dragged Gabey there one day (he didn?t want to go) and now its one of his favorite places to eat. After that we went back to his house for a short time, and then we went to Cold Stone. It?s an ice cream place. They have so many different kinds of flavors, like cake batter, and random things like that. But you pick out what kind of ice cream you want, and they take it out and you can pick what you want to go in it. They mash it all together with these metal thingies. And then they put it in a waffle cone. It was really good. It was cool; we don?t have anything like that in Petoskey. After that we went and saw Troy. It was such a good movie! I loved it! I would definitely go see it again. Brad Pitt is the star, as I am sure you all know. But they did such a good job at making that movie. It r0x0rs. (Lauren slang) Saturday Gabey wasn?t feeling to hot so we just hung out around the house. We got his blood drawn and went to the mall and got Dutch ice. Other than that we just hung out, his counts dropped a lot that day. They went from 40,000 to 6,000. Sunday I went home. They dropped me off at my cabin. I had family up and I wanted to spend a little time with them before they had to go back. It was my cousin Curt, my Aunt Jackie and Uncle John. They were up for the weekend to do some morel hunting. They only found 800 this weekend. So they were kind of disappointed.
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| Poor Cadillac |
| 05.13.04 (10:32 am) [edit] |
Sorry that it has been so long since I have written in here. I have been kind of busy, plus I got really sick yesterday. Ive been getting these really nasty migraines, so I am going to go to the doctors on Monday. :( I am not much for doctor appointments. Im not much for hospitals either.
Today has been a weird day. It turns out that a elementary teacher at Cadillac was shot by her husband. Apparently they are going through a bad divorce and a 6-year-old boy was hit by a semi truck while riding his bike across the highway after school. What parent in their right mind would let their 6-year-old child ride their bike across the highway! What the hell is wrong with people!
One more day till I get to see Gabe. I am going down there to spend the weekend with him since he cant come up here. His mom and him are picking me up at 11 on Friday. I am so excited. In the last 5 weeks I have seen him for 3 days. But Im not going to complain he is worth it. We are going to go out to eat at Mongolian BBQ and then this place that I think is called Cold Stone, but I am not sure. But we are going there for dessert and then we are going to see Troy. That comes out tomorrow. We both really want to see it, plus I owe him a manly movie, and not a chick flick, like he has been watching for me.
Gabe and I have been going out for 7 months tomorrow! This is my longest relationship! I am proud of myself. I am really happy though, I wouldnt change one second of it for all the money in the world. :D
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| Friends Friends Friends |
| 05.10.04 (10:49 am) [edit] |
This is going to be a little thing of some of my friends. I went to one of Lauren's softball games, and these are some of the pictures we took.
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| Prom |
| 05.10.04 (10:41 am) [edit] |
Prom was a blast. Gabe and I woke up at about noon. We got up showered, and headed out to get lunch with Emily. Emily and I went to Katrinas to get our hair done. She has been doing our hair for dances for quite a while now. That took longer than I thought it would. But we went back to his house, got dressed, and headed out to Laurens house. At Laurens house we had appetizers and took pictures. After that we headed over to my house for Salad, and I made soup for Gabey because he cant have salad. :(
I was really surprised that we ended up having it at my house. We have been painting and my house was a disaster before hand. But my parents spent the whole day putting the house back together. I was really happy. I thanked them so much for it; I really wanted them to see all of us. After salad we went to Christinas for main course. And then we went put-put golfing to blow time before dessert. That was great, it was a blast. We went to Kates house for dessert. She made an ice cream pie/cake. It was so good. I want to get that recipe from her.
The dance itself was a lot of fun. It was my last one :cry: We got there at 9:20ish, and we stayed till 12:45. It was nice dancing with Gabe, not saying Im a good dancer, just that its a lot of fun. :lol: Afterwards we went to Laurens house and played pool and cranium. Then we all popped in a movie and passed out. Her mom made us breakfast in the morning. That was really sweet of her. After that Gabe and I went back to his house so he could pack and head out. It was Mothers Day, and he needed to be with his mommy.
When he left I was really sad. I spent every second with him the past 4 days, but it didnt feel long enough but I guess it never does. :cry:
Lauren decided that we are going to be lifelong friends. I thought that was great. I love that idea. She is an awesome friend. I really dont know what I would do without her; she has helped me in so many ways. And I am glad to help out whenever I can. I am making something for her as an Im-Leaving-For-College-G onna-Insanely-Miss-You kind of gift. I got an idea for it last night. But Im not telling what it is because I know that she is going to be reading this. I am also making it for a few other of my friends.
It is going to be really weird when I move. I am looking forward to it, but at the same time I am scared. I don't want to leave my family, and all of my friends. They have always been there for me, and living 200 miles from them isn't going to be the easiest thing I've ever done. :?
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| Back in his arms |
| 05.09.04 (1:16 pm) [edit] |
Thursday was a good day. Thursday was a great day. Gabe came up on Thursday. He got here at 3:30ish, I went right over to his house when I found out that he was here. Emily gave me a ride, I called him from her car, but I didnt tell him I was coming. He was up stairs putting his stuff away, and I ran upstairs and gave him a hug. I think we hugged for something like 10 minutes. It was so nice seeing him. I was so happy. I couldnt stop smiling, either could he.
Thursday we just hung out around his house. We ordered some pizza and watched TV. Friday after school Gabe and I went to my house and tried to figure out the whole dress situation. I got a dress but under some bright light, its completely see-through. I went shopping for a full body slip, and a corset but with each one you could still see lines, or something. I didnt like it. So my mom and I agreed that I would just borrow one of my friends. I felt bad for Gabey, he was just driving us all of these places so look for things for my dress.
I called Lauren, and asked if she had anything I could borrow. She said to head on over. But before I went over to her house, I stopped by Shays, and got on of hers as a back up. Gabey and I went over to Laurens and she had three dresses. The first one (which I ended up wearing) was a purplish blue. The other two were really cute, but they were a little to short for me.
John was over at Laurens, and we decided to go to dinner. We went to Northwoods. I have never been there before, and neither had anyone else. It was pretty good. We had some problems with the waitress. Gabe cant eat anything that is green (because he is on chemo, and it could kill him) unless it is boiled. Well they put parsley flakes over EVEYTHING! We tried to explain it to the waitress, we just said he was allergic, but she still didnt get it. She thought we were trying to screw with her. So she got kind of huffy and puffy, and took it back, and was going to get him more. The manager came by and asked if everything was ok, with the change and all.
After that we went to a movieit was a huge debate because the guys didnt want to see Mean Girls, but the girls did. Gabe new that I really wanted to see it, so he said he would. He got all of the other guys to agree to it too. He said lets do it for them, they wont give up, make them happy. It was really sweet. He didnt even end up liking the movie, there were some funny parts where I caught him laughing, but he still wasnt a huge fan. I thought it was funny, I liked it. The other guys hated it, and they kind of made a big deal about it, Gabe said he would watch any movie I wanted to if it made me happy. He didnt complain to me either. John said that we are never allowed to pick movies again. He kind of needed to chill. Gabe and I went back to his house, he called his mommy, and we watched TV and talked.
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| DECA- Nashville! |
| 05.06.04 (11:56 am) [edit] |
Oklet me finish this outafter we saw Jimmy Wayne in concert we walked back to our hotel rooms. It was pretty late and we had a 12:30 curfew that night and I was tired as hell so we went to bed early. We also had to be getting up early for our occupational test.
Sunday we got up at 7:30 to get ready for our test. We had to take a bus over to the Opryland hotel. The test sucked so much. It was so hard. There were so many terms on there that I have never heard before. But I didnt expect to win at this conference anyways. I knew it was going to be a long shot.
After out test we walked over to the mall. Had to do some more shopping and needed to blow a little time. The mall is pretty big. Its one floor, but they have a funky design for it. It twists and turns all over the place. They had a beauty contest for little kids going on there. It was so cute watching them walk across the stage. They were adorable.
Sunday we had the rest of the day to do as we pleased. We got our state pins on Saturday night for trading. I got some from states like North Carolina, Nevada, Oklahoma, Colorado, Texas, Pennsylvania, Virginia, and West Virginia. It was a great way to meet new people. We had a state picture taken of everyone from Michigan at the Hilton Hotel. When we were waiting we meet some people from Okalahoma getting their picture taken too. They were so funny. They loved my northern accent and I loved their southern accent. They loved the way I laughed, so they kept making us laugh. I think that the guy that was there was gay. There were 4 girls and 1 guy. But I think he was gay. But he was soooooo funny. I loved talking to him. :D
Monday we had our role-play. That was all right. It wasnt that hard, but it didnt leave much room for you to be creative. But our judge sucked. She wasnt happy at all. I dont think she wanted to be there. She just looked at us, and we asked her questions and she wouldnt even respond to them. But I loved the experience, so that makes up for everything.
Other things that we did were we went on a riverboat cruise. It is the worlds largest riverboat. It was called General Jackson. It had four levels. We went on it to have dinner. We were being served a 3-course meal. The meal was all right but the entertainment was outstanding! They were called Sing, they were so good. They did their performance like 50s style. The girls wore stiletto heals with spirally dresses with huge slits up to their hips. The guys wore tuxedos of different colors. They did some Frank Sinatra, Elvis, Trisha Yearwood, gospel, and blues. They were so good, I was really surprised. :D
The new Batchelor for the NBC show was on our boat. He was one of the singers in the group Sing. He was so good, and must addreally cute! We got a picture with him. The boat was a lot of fun; we went all the way down to downtown Nashville. The Stokes were playing as we were on the boat. The boat stopped so we could watch them. They were good, we couldnt hear to great, but it was still cool. After that we took a bus back into town and Emily and I headed to our rooms.
Tuesday we had our award ceremony in the morning. We didnt win, nor did Mike. But thats all right, it was still a blast. Nick and Dane were in the top 6. So they did good! Tuesday we packed and hung out, we went back to the mall for some last minute shopping.
Tuesday night they had the closing ceremony and grand awards. It was really cool watching the people who placed first hear their names and freak out. It was nice seeing that it made people really happy, I mean if they got first place, they deserved it.
Wednesday we had to get up at 3 in the morning, and be out of our room by 4. It was horrible! Ahhh...I was so tired! We didnt even get back to our room till like midnight. I passed out at the airport. I was so tired. I feel asleep on the seats. I laid down. It was a really weird. I was able to squeeze under a arm rest and then prop my feet up on the next arm rest, and used it like a bed. It was great; I got a few looks when I finally woke up. Gundy took a picture of me, so I am going to try and put it in here.
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Us in the hotel! http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0574.jpg" title="http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0574.jpg" target="_blank"http://img63.photobucket.com/...
The group at the Hard Rock Cafe for lunch on our first day. http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0576.jpg" title="http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0576.jpg" target="_blank"http://img63.photobucket.com/...
Emily and I in the Opryland Hotel! http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0580.jpg" title="http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0580.jpg" target="_blank"http://img63.photobucket.com/...
This is what we had to wear to compete in! http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0593.jpg" title="http://img63.photobucket.com/albums/v191/stephanie baker/IMG_0593.jpg" target="_blank"http://img63.photobucket.com/...
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| Home Sweet Home!!! |
| 05.05.04 (4:17 pm) [edit] |
Well today I got home from Nashville. I have to say that it was a BLAST!! We left Friday morning. I spent the night at Emilys house because we were going to be getting up at 3ish. We left for the Pelston airport at 4:10. We picked up Dane and headed on our way. Our plane took off at 6:30? I dont really remember right nowI am dead tired.
It was kind of scary for me. I havent been in a plane since like the 4th grade. So it had been a while. I was a little shaky but when we got up there I was good. I didnt like the little planes! They suck! SO MUCH! They shake like a mother F*&%#@! They scared the shit out of me. But we made it safely (thank god!). Our next flight was at 10:20ish I think. So Mike and I played two person euchre, Emily read her book and played a game, and Nick and Dane worked on their virtual business.
We boarded our next plane and made it to Nashville International Airport at 10:45 (they are 2 hours behind us). We went to our hotel which was the Double Tree Inn. It was a nice hotel minus the fact that the housekeeping sucked ass! They never cleaned our room once! We had to call them and bitch, and then we had to change our own sheets, we were angry. :evil:
I had two roommates. They were really coolone was named Jackie, and the other was Elizabeth, but everyone called her busyI have no idea why. But Busy or Bizzy which ever you prefer, had a issue with doing her hair. She would dry it, curl it, straighten it, and then repeatover and over again! She was fucking depleting the ozone with her hair spray use! She was out of control! But other than her freaky obsessions she was pretty cool. Oh yea, and after she spent an hour and a half doing her hair, she just left it down, and straight! IT DIDNT DO ANYTHING! Some people :roll:
Jackie was so funny. We had a great time talking to her and laughing. She had a messed up advisor! She had some wicked problems of her own.
Friday we went out to lunch at Hard Rock and then Emily and I went shopping. Most of the schools werent coming in till Saturday morning.
Saturday we went to the mall and I did some much needed shopping. We also checked out the Opryland hotel. That thing is HUGE! It had a huge convention center inside ita shopping center, a river, 3 waterfalls, 4 outdoor swimming pools, and like almost 3,000 rooms. Needless to saythat place is HUGE! It was so fun walking around in there.
Saturday night they had the opening session. That rocked! Lets see, they started out how they always dotalking and talking and talkingthey gave away 200,000 dollars in scholarships. Then Billy Gilman came on. He is a country singer. He is something like 14 or 15 years old. He talked to us about MDA (Muscular Dystrophy Association) and then he sang a song. That was awesome. I listened to him when he first came out. I was screaming insanely. Then it got even better. Jimmy Wayne was there! He gave us a mini concert! I think I started to really lose it then. I took so many pictures. He sang like 5 or 6 songs for us. Including, Stand Up, I Love You This Much, and Stay Gone. :lol: :D :lol: :D
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I would love to write more but I am working at the library right now on my Advanced Comp. paper about ANWR. And I am so tired. I flew back today, and sat in an airport for a total of like 6 hours, plus was on a plane for like 2 and a half. More tomorrow! I promise!
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| So how do you draw that conclusion? |
| 04.26.04 (10:26 am) [edit] |
This weekend was all right. I didnt get to see Gabe, so it could have been better. But you got to play the cards you were dealt (I have that PHRASE!!). Screw that I FOLD! Sorry. I just had to add that. Lets seeFriday I went to Christinas house with Claire and Matt to play some cards. We played euchre (If you are not from Michigan you probably dont know what that is, sorry).
We played two games but it took us like an hour and a half. We kept stopping and talking. After that I went home, they rented Texas Chainsaw Massacre. I have seen that movie a lot, plus I had to get up and help clean and stuff for the painting my parents were going to be doing.
Saturday I went shopping with Emily and my sister. I needed clothes for DECA, so did Emily and my sister needed to pick up some clothes. We went to quite a few stores. I got 2 skirts, and 3 tops, and 2 pairs of sunglasses. It was nice to go shopping; I havent done that in a while. I am trying to keep my money spending to a minimum because I have to pay for college soon, and an apartment, and so much more.
After that I called Gabe and talked to him for a while. He wasnt feeling good. This weekend was good for him. He was sick the whole time, like really sick. Some points he was too sick to even talk to me on the phone. That made me cry, I wanted to help him, but I knew there was nothing that I could do. I just had to sit while he suffered. It makes you feel pretty helpless. :cry:
Saturday we learned that I am allergic to the fumes that paint gives off. It was really bad. Sunday they planned on painting the whole living room, and all the way up to my bedroom. So I couldnt be home. I went over to Christinas house and we TRIED to put together a 1500 piece puzzle. Yea that didnt turn out so well. But it was nonetheless a lot of fun.
I went home and got my clothes together, called Gabe, talked to him for an hour or so, and then I went to spend the night at Emilys house because I couldnt say home.
At her house we played with her sisters snake. He is cool. I like that guy. And then we played Set (a crazy card game) and then we played monopoly. I havent played that game in so long. It was so much fun. I am going to play that today when I get home from school.
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| ANWR! Arctic National Wildlife Refuge |
| 04.23.04 (10:56 am) [edit] |
Hey I am going a English paper on ANWR, also ANWAR. If you have any information on this please please please let me know! I need a lot of info plus the site that you found it, or where you found it. newspapers, tv, magazines..etc... Thanks for you help everyone!
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| 3 More weeks |
| 04.23.04 (10:51 am) [edit] |
Well today was another good day. Minus the fact that I got murdered in gym class today. We were playing hockey and I took a slap shot to the upper thigh. Needless to say, that hurt like a bitch. I have this nice bruise there now, good and purple. You know how it is. And I took one to the ankle. That didnt hurt nearly as bad as the other one though. But I can take it, I am trooper.
I am not going down state to see Gabe this weekend. :cry: We called the college and they said they would like help me with a apartment, and it just wont work for this weekend. I am really sad about that because that means I wont see Gabe for 3 more weeks. That sucks, but for a week of that I am going to be in Nashville. We leave in 7 MORE DAYS!!!!!! YAY!!!!! I am so excited! YAY! :)
I went to Laurens game last night. They did really good in the first one, but they lost the second one, barely. Lauren did AWESOME! You ROCK LAUREN! She got a triple, and she caught some badass hits out in center field. She is said to be the best center fielder in Northern Michigan. I dont know if she likes that though, because it puts so much pressure on her. But she is really good at what she does.
Emily and I are going to go get boutonnires for the boys today. I want to get him something a little out of the ordinary. Thinking outside of the box on this one. Its his last prom, and mine so I figure why not. What harm can it do?
3 more months of CHEMO! YaY! Almost done. I cant wait. I know that Gabe is looking forward to it greatly. I want to through him a little party or something at the end of it. I am just ready for this to be over with and I am not even the one going through all of it. I feel bad for him, he is too young to have to deal with these sort of things. Message to god: Give the kid a break! Sorry had to add that. Well anyways. I am out. I might not be able to write over the weekend, but I will surely write on Monday! Bye yall! :cry: :cry: [LINE]
"You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese, the Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the US of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, and the 3 most powerful men in America are named 'Bush', 'Dick', and 'Colon'"
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| Hey you! Out of the gene pool! |
| 04.22.04 (11:04 am) [edit] |
Dan's funeral was today. My sister was supposed to go, but her ride didn't show up, so I don't know if she got another ride or not. :(
Today things were pretty cool. We played tennis in gym. I was really happy about that. I haven't been able to play tennis for so long. I think the last time I played tennis was October. :)
This weekend I am going down state to get my apartment for the following year. How scary! I am really nervous about it. This is going to be a pretty big and scary change for me. I am not used to not having my parents around but I think that Gabe will make it easier on me. I know that he will be a big help. He is really sweet like that. He really wants me to go down there and I really want to go down there too. So I know that I am making the right decision. I am almost an adult I have to learn to live on my own. So why not start right now.
One of the things that I am just worried about it my dad. He has hepatitis B. He got it through a blood transfusion in the 80s, or so they think. He did a lot of treatment, which was a lot like chemotherapy, but it didnt work. It was so hard to watch him go through that, and not help any at the end. He was on medical leave for like 10 months my sophomore year. I am very close to my dad and I am scared to leave him because I dont want anything to happen to him while I am gone. That would kill me. They told my dad that he had about 5 good years leftand that was about 2 or 3 years agohe has good days and bad days. He is trying to have as much fun as he can while his body is still good. We go out to our cabin a lot in the summer and do a lot of four wheeling. We do a lot of camping and canoeing too. He loves the outdoors; we just dont know how long he will be able to do all of these things.
My dad has an amazing attitude about all of this though. He doesnt let it get him down. I just hope he stays strong as long as he possibly can. I try to stay strong for him, but its harder said than done. I catch myself breaking down and crying the more I think about it. :cry:
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| Good days... |
| 04.21.04 (12:12 pm) [edit] |
Today was actually a good day at school. Today we found out that Dans funeral is tomorrow. I hope everything runs smoothly and that the family can get passed this tragedy.
I planned on going to the boys tennis match after school today but because of the weather it was canceled. :(
So I don't really know what I am going to do today. Probably find a topic for my research paper for advanced composition. I dont know what I am going to do yet. Lauren said she has a good topic that I could use. It has to be a topic where you can take sides on issues. But you have to have evidence to back it up. I like research papers, so I am actually looking forward to this.
Right now we are figuring out out prom plans, we might all spend the night at Laurens and if not there then Christina's. FUN FUN! I am really looking forward to prom. Well I must go for now, more later. Sorry this was so short. 8)
[LINE] [b]Tip of the Day[/b]-Don't vote, don't bitch
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| It only hurts when I breathe |
| 04.20.04 (10:57 am) [edit] |
This is a new song by Shania Twain. I am sure most everyone has just about heard of her.
Hope life's been good to you since you've been gone I'm doin' fine now--I've finally moved on It's not so bad--I'm not that sad
I'm not surprised just how well I survived I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive I can't complain--I'm free again
Chorus: And it only hurts when I'm breathing My heart only breaks when it's beating My dreams only die when I'm dreaming So, I hold my breath--to forget
Don't think I'm lyin' 'round cryin' at night There's no need to worry, I'm really all right I've never looked back--as a matter of fact
And it only hurts when I'm breathing My heart only breaks when it's beating My dreams only die when I'm dreaming So, I hold my breath--to forget
It only hurts when I breathe
Mmm, no, I've never looked back-- as a matter fact
And it only hurts when I'm breathing My heart only breaks when it's beating My dreams only die when I'm dreaming So, I hold my breath--to forget
Hurts when I'm breathing Breaks when it's beating Die when I'm dreaming It only hurts when I breathe
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| Backseat of a Greyhound Bus |
| 04.19.04 (11:06 am) [edit] |
This is a song by Sara Evans. It's a pretty good song, I mostly like it because I am a huge Sara Evans fan. So tell me what you think!
She wore a dress with cherries on it Going somewhere where she'd be wanted In a town this small all they do is talk No wedding ring, chipped fingernail polish She always wished that she could go to college But some dreams fade, they just slip away She started to show a few months ago And she had to go, that's how she wound up
Chorus 1 On the backseat of a Greyhound bus Head hung down with the windows up Staring at the rest of her life She never thought this would be the place Where she would find her saving grace But she fell in love, she fell in love On the backseat of a Greyhound bus The moon was full, the stars were smilin' God has a funny sense of timin' The baby came on the interstate Somewhere between Jackson and Memphis She finally found what she had been missin' She cried and laughed while the red lights flashed Sweet baby girl, she looked into the face of a new The face of a brand new world
Chorus 2 On the backseat of a Greyhound bus Heart so full that it could bust Staring at the rest of her life She never thought this would be the place Where she would find her saving grace But she fell in love, she fell in love On the backseat of a Greyhound bus Sweet baby girl, she found a brand new world
On the backseat of a Greyhound bus Heart so full that it could bust Staring at the rest of her life She never thought this would be the place Where she would find her saving grace But she fell in love, she fell in love On the backseat of a Greyhound bus Sweet baby girl, she found a brand new world
She wore a dress with cherries on it Going somewhere where she'd be wanted
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